Marie Osmond – Skirtingroundmylife

In this poem which I’ve titled Stirrings I look at how the teenage trans girl of the mid to late 70’s learned from the music of the original disco queen Donna Summer that even trans girls can be bisexual and how I managed to embrace this side of myself without ever revealing it to anyone. I hope you enjoy the read.

Stirrings

It was Donna Summer who confirmed
my attraction to women
I knew had stirrings
Since the day I looked at Marie
as well as her brother
You know from America’s first musical family
I was at what my mother called a dangerous age
Questioning my sexuality was according to her logic
The kind of thing movie stars got paid to do
But it wasn’t real life Hollywood wives she said
Had far too much fun and got way too much sex
Without having to face the responsibility
Of the women and girls she knew
If she thought that society shared her view
On these topics boy was she in for a shock
The truth is I was ready to rock her world
To its very foundations
I experienced tingling sensations
Beyond both her imaginations and comprehension
I was open to suggestions and invitations from all
I would answer nature’s call
In whatever way it called me
I fancied Donny And Marie but it wasn’t till Donna came along
I knew I felt love for them both and realised
How unkind some choices can be.

I think I’m getting bolder in my writing these days. It was only back end of last year I wrote my first ever poem in Scots and I’ve now written a Burns styled poem Fae A Lassie in the mither tounge. Now I’ve attempted my first ever monologue and I’m ready to share it with you. It’s titled Queen Of Scotland a title suggested to me by my good friend Ailie Wallace after she along with my and Words And Music co-host Jen Hughes had given it a proof read and helped with the editing process . It is written on transgender issues from the point of view of a former neighbour who knew the woman concerned when the trans girl was growing up. It is a lot more autobiographical than some people may think and I hope you enjoy the read.

Queen Of Scotland. (A Monologue)

You know what she’s like
she’s always been the same
played with dolls whenever she got the chance
so her mammy got an action man
like that was ever going to work
she was born a boy
and her mammy and daddy tried
to encourage her to do boy things and she did like football and rugby and other sports
but only ones where the men wore shorts
I think she had a thing about that
especially in her teens
told me she fancied both Donny And Marie
you know from the Osmonds
her being from the schemes
yet she fancied herself as Queen of Scotland
she had some imagination
her mammy was awful frustrated
that she couldn’t be content as a boy
her dad got it though and anyway
he always wanted a daughter
and she was always a daddy’s girl
though it was a secret best kept from her mammy
as was her bisexuality
well she knew that her mother was very conservative that way.
not that she was ever a Tory
I’m just saying she was socially
traditional
don’t get me wrong her love was unconditional
I think she was just scared
and who could blame her
it was just her way
It wasn’t just the gossip from the neighbours
though that was a part of it
but it was more a fear of her daughter being attacked
and she couldn’t see her any other way
than the son she brought in to the world
yet I knew she was lying to herself
that poor girl couldn’t be a boy if she tried
and trust me she tried
cried more tears than any lassie should
right through her teens and her twenties
she was well in to her thirties
before she even tried to take the first steps to acceptance
and now she’s more confident than she’s ever been
the girl from the scheme or who dreamed of being Queen of Scotland
is content at last just to be herself