In this poem I remember the night I met Sinead not her real name that remains confidential and relate the story of the night she told me she fancied me not in spite of being a transwoman but because of it. The poem relates the story of the time she asked me if I had ever had a girl crush and wouldn’t relent until I fessed up that I did. That said I think she was a wee bit surprised when I told her it was Judith Chalmers who used to present the holiday programme Wish You Were Here at least it was until Princess Diana and then Madonna came along . I’ve given it the title Girl Crush I hope you enjoy the read
Girl Crush
Until that night I had always dismissed
the idea of kissing other women
I was trans I was never meant to be like this
though dabbling a wee bit at pride
was kind of exciting
but this was different this was a girl
inviting me in to her personal space
wanting me to share moments
in ways I would never have thought
we talked a lot about different things
she teased me about wearing frilly pinks
made me blush like I was sweet sixteen
whispered dirty secrets in my ear
about what she’d like to do to me
told me that loads of women like women like me
not in spite of it but because of it
and it’s no law against a transwoman
liking other lassies
or other lassies liking them
she asked me if I ever had
a girl crush I said no
she called me a liar and asked again
until I said yes it is
it was Princess Diana in that wedding dress
until Madonna and Kylie took things
to a totally different level
she called me a she devil
till I told her my first one had been
Judith Chalmers
at first she couldn’t understand why
but in days before Diana arrived
she made me smile
and I didn’t know why till later
when girls shared secrets we called girl talk
and trust me guys would be in for a shock.
if they ever knew what we’d discussed
as we kissed on the dance floor
and I confessed my sin to her
that in the days before Diana
Judith Chalmers was my girl crush
© Gayle Smith 2021
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